When I Just Want to Sleep

Lately, I've felt incredibly and unexplainably tired. I'm sleeping enough (not sure how well I'm sleeping though). But I just feel like all I want to do is sleep.

The diet is going. That's about all I can say. I made a lot of my own changes to what I could or could not eat, and I've splurged quite often but not too often. It's been a wreck on my blood sugars (having me run low constantly or high for days). It's just a balancing act, but I will certainly be glad when I'm not concerned about what I eat.

I want to eat fairly close to the diet after it's done (July 1) just because it will be better for my health and weight. But I don't want to be tied down to having to eat certain things or not eat certain things. The guilt gets to me.

I am noticing some more differences in my health (maybe they are all in my head, but who knows really?) I feel like my hair is slowly looking better and falling out less. My skin is better, but not perfect and definitely goes back and forth. Everything else seems about the same.

I'm still holding out till I go to the appointment (and I have a few calls and medicine changes in the coming weeks) to see what this is all going to do. I really would like to be healthy, but I still just can't settle on it being done. It doesn't seem fathomable. And it seems like SOOO much work to get there and stay there (the diet, the pills, the habits). I don't think any of this would be as bad if I didn't already have diabetes to deal with. That is such a daily hassle that it's like, seriously...what else can you throw at me? Want to challenge me? See if I'll break?

Go ahead.

You're WHAT?!?!?!

Dieting.

That's right, a diet. I'm on the yeast free diet portion of the program through Hotze Health and Wellness Clinic.

I'm eating mostly fruit and vegetables, nuts, grilled chicken, turkey meat, brown rice, red or sweet potatoes. I'm not allowed to have anything with vinegar, dairy products of any kind, artificial sweeteners, sugar, yeast (obviously!) and a whole list of other things.

So far I've splurged a few times and had ice cream. Dairy, sugar and fat. OH MY!!! But I don't particularly care (okay, maybe a little). I want this diet to work, but at the same time I'm struggling with it.

My blood sugars are either low or somewhere between 150 and 180. I can't seem to get my insulin adjustments made where I don't end up in one extreme or the other. It's quite frustrating. If only I wasn't diabetic.....yes, that's another thought.

I don't feel any physical relief of symptoms (but I'm only on day five). I have noticed a little change in my weight, just that it isn't jumping five pounds in one day. I think the most I've gained in one day was two. And I'm drinking gallons and gallons of water!

Since this week, I started back in my work out routine (I'm aiming for working out 2 times a week and fast walking 3 times a week), I feel that I might just actually lose some weight. I mean I'm barely eating any calories and working out! How could I not?

I'm crossing my fingers this whole thing is worth it. Until July 1st I'll be strictly on this diet (minus my slips with the ice cream), so for a month of torture, I better see some dang results!!!