When I Just Want to Sleep

Lately, I've felt incredibly and unexplainably tired. I'm sleeping enough (not sure how well I'm sleeping though). But I just feel like all I want to do is sleep.

The diet is going. That's about all I can say. I made a lot of my own changes to what I could or could not eat, and I've splurged quite often but not too often. It's been a wreck on my blood sugars (having me run low constantly or high for days). It's just a balancing act, but I will certainly be glad when I'm not concerned about what I eat.

I want to eat fairly close to the diet after it's done (July 1) just because it will be better for my health and weight. But I don't want to be tied down to having to eat certain things or not eat certain things. The guilt gets to me.

I am noticing some more differences in my health (maybe they are all in my head, but who knows really?) I feel like my hair is slowly looking better and falling out less. My skin is better, but not perfect and definitely goes back and forth. Everything else seems about the same.

I'm still holding out till I go to the appointment (and I have a few calls and medicine changes in the coming weeks) to see what this is all going to do. I really would like to be healthy, but I still just can't settle on it being done. It doesn't seem fathomable. And it seems like SOOO much work to get there and stay there (the diet, the pills, the habits). I don't think any of this would be as bad if I didn't already have diabetes to deal with. That is such a daily hassle that it's like, seriously...what else can you throw at me? Want to challenge me? See if I'll break?

Go ahead.